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All I Need
Radiohead
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I'm the next act
Waiting in the wings
I'm an animal
Trapped in your hot car
I am all of the days
That you choose to ignore

You are all I need
You are all I need
I'm in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds

I am a moth
Who just wants to share your light
I'm just an insect
Trying to get out of the night
I only stick with you
Because there are no others

You are all I need
You are all I need
I am in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds

It's all wrong
It's all right
It's all right
It's all wrong
It's all right
It's all right
It's all right


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I’m enervated…

We're only 5 in the team. Joey and JM took their annual physical exam today, which left me practically on my own for three hours here at work. Thankfully Mac and Jill, who are from a different team, had helped out until Noey arrived. And Patty has not fully recuperated yet. So for today, it's just Noey and me.

I’ve been listening non-stop to Radiohead’s Jigsaw Falling Into Place this morning. It’s refreshing, since all I’d been listening to these past couple of days were of L’Arc and VAMPS. I finally saw the whole VAMPS live DVD, by the way. My favorite performances were Dolly, Jesus Christ, the Other Side, and Hello. Hello is the time for the band to err… molest Kazu-chan *snickerfit*. Of course, Glamorous Sky is epic. ^^

Also, I’ve seen the PV for I GOTTA KICK START NOW. Aside from Hyde looking extremely good, there’s really nothing much to see. Hahahaha… And Ken’s new PV is also out. The music is great, but -–despite my enormous love for Ken-chan- I honestly can’t stand his singing voice. I’m terrible.

I miss L’Arc~en~Ciel. The solo activities may be good for our rainbow boys though. But they excel so much better when they’re together. I’ll be hanging on the thought that all these solo works would make them more amazing when they get back together. Because really, no matter how beautiful a color is, how could it compare to a rainbow.

Inimitable. That’s L’Arc in my heart.

Yeah, I know. I’m writing gibberish again. I’m in the saddle of madness. I beseech you to keep that in mind. Cut this girl some slack. She’s worked hard today. And she takes love for vitamins. Madness, remember. *smiles*


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Yesterday was my favorite sister’s birthday. She was still in bed when I left for work. When I got in the office, I remembered something I needed to download, so I called home. She answered and said something like “What do you need? I have to go.” Her voice was monotone and strict. I was taken aback by the animosity; I totally forgot it was her birthday. I clumsily asked for my brother instead. She said he was outside then she hung up. The low thud of the receiver as I heavily put it down felt like a small whack in the head, making me remember what the day was. So I quickly sent her a text message to greet her. I did not expect any reply. But she promptly did, said she was going to be late for her class; hence, her hostility on the phone. My sister is capricious like that.

In the afternoon, Rachel and Ces came at the house to celebrate my sister’s natal day. Rach wanted us to take a picture at a studio. But the sun was still hot outside, so we decided to let the day cool down a bit and wait for Zarah too. We watched a few Boston Legal episodes (I miss Allan and Denny too!) while eating donuts and Daddy’s new recipe *which he’s so proud of* --mixed scrambled eggs and Kimchi, slightly flavored with oyster sauce, I think. At around 7 PM, we headed out to the mall. Za was already there, waiting for us.

I ate too much last night. The Takoyaki and Gyoza alone were heavy, but Za was determined to have pizza. And so we did. We discouraged her at first. But the 2 girls at the Takoyaki stand took so long in making our second order, the wait made us hungry again. We were watching them make Takoyaki from our table, and I think they made 3 batches. The first 2 were all burnt black. It was getting late then, it should’ve been best if we had that last order canceled. But I haven’t got the heart to actually tell the girl, the one who made the perfect Takoyaki on our first order. I’m so timid! Her face was gleaming with all the efforts she gave in making that last batch. It was the other girl who was responsible for the 1st two actually (new on the job, maybe?). Then the first girl finally took over --seeing that the other one was close to burning her 3rd batch. In the end, the Takoyaki were half-cooked. Hahaha… That was annoying. Ugh. The timid me and my foolish, romantic head! And then Za noticed their ID --it said "Reliever". When I saw that, I quickly walked away from their stall, in fear that the girl might take offense if she sees me laughing. Rach took the half-done Takoyaki and we moved on to 'Yellow Cab'. We gobbled up an all-meat-lovers pizza, spicy chicken, a potato dish (I don’t know what the name was)... *sigh* Yeah, I ate way too much.

When I got home, I sipped some wine before going to bed (at long last, we opened that bottle –imagine, it was in the fridge since last Christmas!). And I almost cried last night too. My pc had gone haywire. Apparently, my brother shuts down the anti-virus when he plays Special Force. I don’t even know if it’s a virus that’s making it freeze. My mind gets too rattled when something goes wrong with the pc. I lack the ability to think sensibly, as if 'logic' is an alien word. I swear, that pc has seen my upset, crying face more than anyone has. I’m attached to it. The easiest way to make me cry, probably, is by pulling out my Internet connection… I’m shallow like that.

“I don’t know, I don’t know,” Aiba nervously utters to himself (in his cute, funny Japanese accent) as he slowly advances toward the cheetahs in the safari (from an episode of TSD wherein Aiba went to Africa).

That’s what I picture in my head to brush off my worrywart self. I need humor to keep my self together, hehe.

Shallow . . . like the glittery waters, that frilled skirt of ebbing waves from the beach. I'm shallow, hmmmm . . .

Uh-oh, we're in trouble. Yeah!

They did a PV for Trouble first!

--Wait, hopefully there's one for I GOTTA KICK START NOW too. It should have. That's the new single after all, and Trouble is just a cover.

[preview, taken from Fuji TV]

I'm still a little indecisive about VAMPS. But, whatever, I’m enjoying listening to Trouble *laughs*. VAMPS is fun. And I think that’s how Hyde sees this whole project. I know VAMPS music is nothing genius. It's not like Hyde attempts to, even. C'mon, it's Haido! Hahaha. We already know what he’s capable of –-and he (most probably) knows that we do. The band's (or unit) “Let’s have some fun, shall we?” attitude, THAT I get. The genius is in the crack! That's what's awesome about this whole endeavour. *laughs*

I’m veeery excited to see that new PV (Ha, I couldn’t have made it more explicit than that. I fail in words. Truly). That vintage look. Those glittery jewelry. That hat. Hmmm *grins* Though, I’m not too keen hearing Hyde sing in English *there I've said it!*. But the cover is so catchy --I can’t help it. I’m taking Hyde’s outstretched hand and hop on the motorcycle, so to speak. I’m crazy like that. Hahaha… I bet he was thinking of a similar scene when he wrote IGKSN (of course, without me in the picture! XD). Didn’t he mention in his recent blog he read motorcycle magazines? This [here]

**forgive me if I'm incoherent. I know you still love me... hug? <3**

VAMPS Live 2008

I have not watched the whole live yet. One thing you must know when Hyde is outside L'Arc~en~Ciel, he goes berserk. Really, really. His voice is raspy and there's more screaming. I'm not complaining though. His songs are meant to be sung that way anyway :P

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And here are just some of my favorite screencaps --or moments - from the parts I already saw:

Hyde drinking the light and those fierce blue eyes . . . asdlksdfjv --how
could I resist making screenshots of that! *Hahaha, I forget this guy's 40*

This is one awesome performance. He started 'DOLLY' with that instense look. It's almost as if the song has possessed him, especially the lines 'To bring you back into this world, I'd break every rule. . . I do it for love'



I love the intro of 'LOVE ADDICT . . . and that furtive epic smile of Hyde to K.A.Z XD


And of course, they had to end it with 'Midnight Celebration' where Hyde could scream his lungs out, and the music seemed to literally rock the whole place down. I wasn't able to make a proper screencap of that though. The only screencap up there where Midnight Celebration was played is the last pic of that last collage.


I ran out of time actually. I was doing this in the office --just to be clear, I did this when I had finished my work, okay? *laughs*--, but then I couldn't finish it all because Kristell and I had to go home early. I even forgot to make some from 'Glamorous Sky'. Well, I did give the link to that performance (see 2 posts back). Now that I'm home, I suddenly feel exhausted and lazy to continue, hehehe. So I'd leave this as is . . . and because, now, I have other things to see to -like maybe finish watching the live? *gigglefit*

Ja ne!

Ring is a virus

Déjà vu? *look 5 posts back*


This [HERE] is practically the same as my 'Ring!' post. So I wouldn't think it necessary to copy everything here. But that one is mixed with a bit of review (had finished the book last Wednesday). So that is similar to my 'Ring!' post, only there's an added pora-fails-at-writing-a-review. Anyway, it's confusing pointing this and that --either go there and see what I mean or just ignore this and that post altogether. Hahahaha...


Madness. Now, that's something I never get confused of, no matter how many this and that there are. It's also a virus. A different kind. One that I know so well, like the lines on my palm.

XD

Hyde's Glamorous Sky

Finally! (*0*)

[clip from VAMPS Live 2008 DVD]

Stranded

I need to get home. Now. Right this minute

But I can't yet because I'm stuck with these cases that I need to follow up. Aarrgh (>.<)

Some of my friends' got their VAMPS DVD already. And Muirin has shared the Glamorous Sky performance with us. Only, I can't access it. Both MF and Youtube are blocked here in the office now. Plus, the effing net connection here is slowing down again *infuriated*. I'm extremely extremely excited to hear it --how could I describe this. . . I'm so impatient to listen to it that it's making me fidgety and my cheeks feel warm. My head hurts. I'm feverish, I think.

I WANT TO GO HOME!

*desk*

Stay with me dear 'Self'

sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy

I need my Monthly VAMPS, haha. I'm extremely grateful to Gabyta_xan for sharing hers. The first pages read "I'm going to make you an offer you can't refuse."

I accept, now what's the offer? *cracks up* These guys . . . THESE GUYS!


I need to get my own copy. I would. Definitely. I'm just waiting for my allowance before I make an order, hehe. (So, my dear Ai? *smiles* I'll be seeing you soon?) But for now, I need to ogle some more at these scans of Monthly Vamps 07 to keep me from zonking out. (Again, thank you, thank you Gabyta_xan <333)

I must say, K.A.Z has very good photos in this volume. And there's no question on Hyde, haha.

Oh, I remember reading something over at LJ about people planning to make a petition to put old albums of Monoral on sale again --or something like that. And, surprisingly, J-san left a reply underneath one of the posts (this entry). It freaked everyone out. Well, not everyone, but some of us were. J-san is the manager of VAMPS. And, apparently, he manages Monoral as well. . . . . He's watching us (O_O). *laughs* Well, to be fair, thinking that he read fans' sites is awesome. It's cool, honestly. But, in his reply, he added 'I do sometimes troll the internet chat rooms posing as a young girl. . .' Sends shiver up my spine.

Hahaha. J-san, you're a character, aren't you? But, we do appreciate all the efforts you do. Arigatou (n_n)

Quandary

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I'm on my way home, and in the process of closing all the application in my pc before completely shutting it down. The only thing is, I plan to leave this effing book, 'Ring', here in the office. But, I can't seem to put it down now. I saw the the movie already, so I should know how things would somehow end, right? Though not exactly as the film, I presume. But still!. . . Aarrrggghh!

Okay, okay. I'm off. I'll leave it here as planned. Sheez (>.<)

RING!

Dahil sa nakakalokang discount ng National Bookstore sa isang libro, agad-agad ko naman syang binili. At bukod don, Hapon kasi ang sumulat eh, Koji Suzuki. Hahahaha. Oo na, biased na kung biased. At dahil na rin sa pagka-impulsive buyer ko, huli na nang nalaman ko na ang libro pala na binili ko ay ang novel kung san based ang horror film na ‘Ring’. Nabasa ko naman na ung title bago ko binili, pero dahil sa matingkad na cover ng libro, malay ko bang eto ung 'Ring'. Sa lahat pa naman ng napanood kong horror, sa ‘Ring’ ako pinakanatakot. Nung panahong nilabas sya sa sine, sa pinsan ko ako tumutuloy. At dahil di pa ayos ung mga kwarto sa bahay nila noon, sa sala ako natutulog. Samakatuwid, kaharap ko ang super laki nilang telebisyon sa buong magdamag. Kaya pagtapos naming manood ng mga kaklase ko ng ‘Ring’, lagi kong naiisip na walang hirap si Sadako kung sakaling sa TV ng pinsan ko sya lalabas. Tapos, pag-umuuwi naman ako sa bahay namin tuwing weekend, sangkatutak din ang TV (may palaruan kasi kami ng playstation dati --kaya may mga nakatambak na TV sa bahay galing sa pwesto, gumagana man o sira). Isipin nyo na lang ang puyat na inabot ko sa bwisit na pelikulang un.

Pero ano pa nga ba ang magagawa ko kundi basahin itong libro. Inumpisahan ko na sya nung Sabado. At saktong-sakto pa dun sa eksena na unang napanood nung bida ung deadly video tapos nagring ung telepono, saka naman nagring din ang cel ko. Natakot ako, at di ko sinagot. Kahit pa ang ringtone ko ay boses ni Haido. Hahaha. Si Kristel pala ung tumawag at may ibabalita. Tawa nang tawa sakin ang mommy at kapatid ko. Napakaduwakang ko daw. Gaano ako ka-duwakang? Tuwing hihinto ako sa pagbabasa nung libro at makakatulog, napapanaginipan ko sya (>.<)

Inaamin ko, mahina ang loob ko sa mga ganitong mga nobela. Ang huli ko yatang binasa na horror novel ay sa Sweet-Valley kids pa. Hahaha. OO, wala pa akong nababasang sinulat ni Stephen King. At wala akong balak! Siguro sa mga novels lang about vampires ako di takot.

--Ah, naalala ko na. Kasalan 'to ng 'Let the Right One In'. Kung sana available sya sa bookstores, eh di sana ako napabili nitong 'Ring'. Kung bakit naman kasi out of stock yung libro na yun - at take note, sa lahat ito ng branch ng Powerbooks at wala daw binigay na date ang publisher mismo kung kelan sya magiging available ulit. Kainis! Ang sabi pa nga nung nakausap ko sa telepono, marami na nga daw naghahanap nung libro, nung isang araw nga lang daw may dumaan sa store at nagtanong rin. Kung alam lang nya, ako rin yun! Hahaha. Naisipan ko lang tumawag at baka may stock na *nagbabakasali lang, hehe*. Nakita ko kasi yung movie, at sabi ng friend ko mas maganda pa daw yung book. Kaya hinanap ko. Pero sa 'Ring' ako bumagsak.

Kaya ngayon, bitbit-bitbit ko tong libro sa office. At least dito lagi akong naliligiran ng tao. Nung Sabado kasi, nagsi-alisan ang mga kasama ko sa bahay. Naiwanan akong mag-isa sa sala, at ang tanging kasama kong kapatid ay natutulog nang mahimbing sa kwarto.

Sabi sakin ni Mommy, alangan naman daw na sa libro lumabas si Sadako. . . Well, malay natin. Hahaha

Nakita nga ni Patty kanina 'tong libro na binabasa ko. Ang sabi nya sakin, 'Tigilan mo na ang pabasa nyan!'

Pero eto parin ako, nagbabasa. Hay! Dito na lang muna 'to sa opisina. Ibang libro na lang babasahin ko bahay, hehe. Kahit pa kasi gustuhin kong itigil na ang pagbabasa, naumpisahan ko na eh. Parang ayaw na akong bitawan ng libro.

Kung si Patty pinatitigil na ako, si Joey naman ang tanong sakin, 'So ilang araw na lang ang natitira sayo?'

XD