Let's paint the future once more

Asu o mabushii kurai ni umaku egakou toshite
Bokura wa kirei na iro o nuri sugita mitai
Chotto kakkowarui koto mo kowareta yume no iro mo
Paretto ni hiroge mou ichido asu wo egakou
Kitto nurisugita irotte shoro ni modorenai kedo
Sore de ii atarashi iro de asu o egakou

--from Aozora Pedaru, Arashi

[translation]
We tried to paint the future as bright as we can
With too many beautiful colors it seems
And with of somewhat bad things and of broken dreams
So let's spread out our palette once more and paint the future
A picture with too much paint can no longer be brought back to white
But that’s fine, we'll paint tomorrow with a new color

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Forgive my poor translation there *is sheepish, heehee*. I like the song so much – the melody and the lyrics – and I want to share it with everyone. It’s the OST for the film “Honey and Clover.” More importantly, it’s one of Arashi’s songs! XD

I feel a little miserable in the office these days. It’s not about work –work is fine, actually. But 2 weeks ago, my colleagues and I decided to have a sleepover. Apple’s roommate moved out and we were going to keep her company for a night. I was so worked up on it. The thought of sleepovers simply makes me thrilled. To me, it’s a good sign of friendship. So if a friend would suddenly tell me that sleepovers are no fun, I’d be taken aback. I’d be really really sad.

And so, we set the date of our little slumber party. It was not planned out well, actually. It’s more of a spur-of-the-moment. I asked my colleagues if they were free on the coming weekend and they did say ‘yes’. Two days before the set night, my friends confirmed that they’re coming. But, honestly, it felt like I was the only one eager to go. I shouldn’t have insisted. But I did. I guess, it’s a little insensitive and rude of me to insist for them to come when it’s not even my house we’re going to. So finally, 2 of them backed out the day before the sleepover. It was about 8 or 9 in the evening when they sent me their message saying they can’t come, their text messages came one after the other too. I was so upset and so so sorry for myself. I hate self-pity. But I just can’t help but think they don’t want to be with me. It’s a boycott, I thought. I wanted to be nonchalant about the whole thing but I can’t stop feeling hurt. Yeah, I’m such a drama queen. *laughs* In the end, there was only person who was not able to go. . . . Arrh, I was hoping for that person to come most of all. But she didn’t.

I don’t like keeping grudges. I get easily tired of arguments that I’d rather forget the whole thing and start over. But how exactly do you get chummy again with a person who doesn’t seem to want to be with you. Aren’t friends supposed to be happy when they’re together? So, say, I’ve forgiven the person already. But then, she doesn’t appear to genuinely want my company so. . . . . will it be better if I stay away from that person? I wouldn’t want to impose myself on others. Never. So for now, the situation between us is, err . . . . I don’t know. I feel like a fish out of water. How exactly should I behave to a person like that? Oh well, the person doesn’t seem to care at all. I’m probably wasting time and energy over this. I’ll just leave things as it is for now and go back to my Arashi world. LOL. Kidding. Hey, my social life isn't this limited, I assure you. Ahaha. . . . . It’s just a little difficult to understand how a friend could be ignored for more than a day.

So anyway, my friends (a totally different bunch) and I will be going to Zoobic next week. I want to see tora-san! Yeah, just like Aiba –no, slash that, definitely not an encounter with tigers like my dear Aiba-chan’s. But I want to pet them a little at least. =D

Ah, I want to go home right this minute. I just saw the news. On VS Arashi’s special episode, Tom Cruise and Cameron Diaz Rolling Coin Towers with the boys . And because I’m the only one here in the office that’s into jpop, there’s nobody that I can fangirl with. Tsk. Everyone in the office is simply crazy with kpop. I try to like it but I just can’t. It’s still very different from jpop. And besides, I like my boys to be pretty, not beefcakes. And unlike kpop boybands, my boys are not mannequins. *docks under the table I know, I know, I’ll be killed for saying that*


**got the pics from Tokyohive